Experiments in healthy eating
In my quest to get in shape this summer, I’m trying to eat healthier. Hence the hummus and vegetables. I’m trying to kick the candy eating habit that I picked up last semester and replace it with a veggie eating habit. We’ll see how that works out. In other news, I’m going to McDonald’s later tonight to see if I can get a job there. Ironic, no?
Well, that sucks.
I didn’t even get a chance to interview because the woman asked me right off the bat whether I could work during the year and I can’t because I go to school out of town and I don’t have the time or money to be driving back. This really sucks. I’m getting even more discouraged. I guess I’ll just have to keep looking.
This is what my fingernails look like right now because….
I GOT A JOB INTERVIEW! Granted it’s a phone interview, but it’s still an interview. I’m really nervous though. I hate talking on the phone and I’m worried about the questions they’re going to ask. It’s probably the opposite for most people, but I like being face to face. It allows me to “work” the interviewer by showing them I’m sincere. Eye contact always helps with these kinds of things. And it doesn’t hurt that I’m attractive (is that conceited to say?). Oh well, I’ll have to deal with it. At least I have a chance. Maybe I will wow them with my lack of job experience. I’ll update on how it went tomorrow.
This is an enormous chain and I’m sorry, but I need to say this:
The laws in the Old Testament were set forth by god as the rules the Hebrews needed to follow in order to be righteous, to atone for the sin of Adam and Eve and to be able to get into Heaven. That is also why they were required to make sacrifices, because it was part of the appeasement for Original Sin.
According to Christian theology, when Jesus came from Heaven, it was for the express purpose of sacrificing himself on the cross so that our sins may be forgiven. His sacrifice was supposed to be the ultimate act that would free us from the former laws and regulations and allow us to enter Heaven by acting in his image. That is why he said “it is finished” when he died on the cross. That is why Christians don’t have to circumcise their sons (god’s covenant with Jacob), that is why they don’t have to perform animal sacrifice, or grow out their forelocks, or follow any of the other laws of Leviticus.
When you quote Leviticus as god’s law and say they are rules we must follow because they are what god or Jesus wants us to do, what you are really saying, as a Christian, is that Christ’s sacrifice on the cross was invalid. He died in vain because you believe we are still beholden to the old laws. That is what you, a self-professed good Christian, are saying to your god and his son, that their plan for your salvation wasn’t good enough for you.
So maybe actually read the thing before you start quoting it, because the implications of your actions go a lot deeper than you think.
/An atheist who understands Christian theology better than Bible-thumpers do.
A little mini rant for today before the season finale of Glee renders me completely incapable of coherent thought:
I truly, whole heartedly believe in what this post says. My roommate for this past year, who identifies as a very strong Christian (Baptist), has told me on multiple occasions that when Jesus died on the cross, it voided all the rules of the Old Testament. That is what Christians believe. That’s is what their holy book tells them. So why, have they gotten it into their heads that all the silly rules and regulations are no longer valid EXCEPT the two lines about homosexuality. How have they deluded themselves into ignoring what they themselves have repeated over and over? If Jesus’s sacrifice wiped out the need to follow all of the OT regulations, then Jesus’s sacrifice wiped out the need to follow ALL OF THE OT REGULATIONS. Otherwise, it doesn’t make any logical sense by their own explanations.
I hate to seem so bitter and jaded and pessimistic about people, but when I look at supposed “Christians” values on gay marriage or just homosexuality in general, it just looks like selfishness. Not righteousness, not goodness for trying to save people from eternal damnation, just a lack of empathy or caring for anyone but yourself. Because when you disparage homosexuality using a part of the Bible that you claim is no longer applicable, you’re basically saying that you should be exempt from those old, antiquatee rules but other people shouldn’t be. That’s selfish. There’s really no other word for it.
And that’s pretty much how I view all those anti-gay folks out there, because selfishness is what their hatred is all about. It’s not ignorance when they say that the rules of Leviticus applies to homosexuals, but not heterosexuals. It’s a willful misapplication of the Bible by their own reasoning. It’s thinking that you’re better than someone else. It’s thinking that you are “right” and every one else is wrong. It’s thinking that you deserve special rights and privileges that others don’t. Like I said, selfishness. And it’s pretty fucked up.
Christians believe that Jesus died on the cross for our sins. They believe that that his sacrifice released us from the laws of the Old Testament. If you’re a Christian, then you believe these things, and you should realize that “Thou shalt not lie with mankind, as with womankind: it is abomination.” Is one of the rules that no longer applies. Point is, you can’t blame your own hatred on Christianity or the Bible. Your argument has no basis under the teachings of your own religion. So if you continue to hate the gays, don’t fucking blame it on Jesus. Blame it on your own selfishness.
(via daxterdd)
Source: drunkonstevphen
Hey, look, I’m updating sort of regularly.
In case you were wondering, I’m still gainfully unemployed. I’ve applied at eleven different retail places and restaurants around town and apparently no one wants to hire me. Who would have thought that businesses wouldn’t want to hire someone with no job experience for only two months before they leave for school again? I understand why I’m not getting any hits, but it still sucks. It’s discouraging in fact. I need job experience to get a job, but I can’t get a job because I don’t have experience. Annoying. I’m almost twenty and I NEED job experience. Plus, I refuse to hang around my house all summer. I’ll suffocate. I’ve only been at home for a week and a half and I feel like ripping my hair out. Cabin fever for sure. Maybe I’ll get a call soon…
Anyway, on a happier note, I’m working on a goal I didn’t mention before. The old “lose weight this summer goal”. Now, I don’t have any specific goal weight. That’s not really my thing. It’s just gotten to the point over the last couple of years that I’m not comfortable in my own body. I don’t like looking at myself in the mirror without clothes on. So I want to get fit and feel better about myself. I haven’t had any kind of exercise routine in years, but I’m pretty sure if I work out enough and just restrain from stuffing my face, I can lose the belly fat I hate so much. If it doesn’t work, then I’ll have to live with it, because dieting is definitely not my thing. Like I mentioned in a previous post, I was sick for a long time with a GI thing that kept me from eating. I was super skinny, but I felt like crap because I was practically starving. So I never ever go hungry for too long. It feels too awful. Being that hungry is worse than the slight disgust I feel when I look at my belly rolls.
My fitness role model is Jenna Ushkowitz. Why? Well, look at her.
Plus, we’ve got a similar body type (I’m taller than her though). She just seems very real and relatable, not to mention that she’s on my favorite show. She got a trainer, which I can’t afford to do, to get in shape, but still. She looks fantastic without having one of those unattainable looking bodies. So yeah. Jenna Ush all the way.
I’m currently 5’8” and 164 lbs. We’ll see where I am in 9 weeks and if I stick to it. I’ll post updates if I make any progress/improvements.
God, I love lists.
Okay, I promised a bio type post, and this is me making good on that promise. Aren’t you proud? When I started this task of trying to describe myself, I knew it was going to be ridiculously hard. I’m terrible at telling my life story and coherency is not my strong suit, so I decided to just make a long, bullet-pointed list of facts about myself. Some of the facts are relevant, most of them aren’t, and more than likely no one reading this cares about the useless things that have gone on in my life, but what can you do? These facts are in no order at all. Really, they aren’t. I just typed them as I thought of them.
· I’m nineteen, a female, and I’m from Tennessee.
· I just finished up my sophomore year of college and I’m advertising major with minors in business and psychology. I either want to be a copy writer for ads, work in ad sales for a magazine, or be an account manger for an agency and work with clients.
· It sounds cliché, but I want to move to New York when I graduate. I guess it makes sense, because all of the best ad agencies are there, but I’m kind of in love with the idea of living in a city like New York. It’s fucking expensive though. I don’t know how I would pay for it. So the other dream cities on the list are Chicago, LA, San Fran, Seattle, and Austin.
· I’m a huge supporter of gay rights and women’s right. In fact, I’m on two programming councils at school: one for the LGBTQQIAA (sheesh) community and one for women.
· I’m very liberal on almost everything except the death penalty. I believe that healthcare should be made available to everyone, that gay people should have the same rights to love and marry as straight people, that birth control should be cheap, and that abortion should be legalized.
· OBAMA 2012
· I’m very, very biased against conservative Republicans (sorry).
· I love food. I’m from the South, and from a large black family. It can’t be helped.
· My other love is Glee. Maybe it sounds crazy to you, but I really do love Glee. I love the characters, I love the actors, I love everything about it. Even though the show pisses me of (a lot), I can’t stop watching. I don’t think I have ever been this emotionally invested in a TV show, and that’s saying something because I watch a fuck ton of TV.
· I’m a Harry Potter fanatic. I’ve read all the books so many times that my original paperback copies of the first three fell to pieces (luckily, I got a shiny new hardback set for Christmas). I listen the Jim Dale audio recordings when I eat by myself and before I go to bed. I also briefly considered getting Dumbledore quote tattooed on my body. I don’t think that’s going to happen though. Also, I think my heart stopped for a second when I went to Harry Potter world in Orlando. It was that awesome.
· I’m a Godless heathen. Actually, I’m not really. I believe in God, I just don’t believe in Jesus and I don’t take advice from a book written God knows when by God knows who. It just seems illogical to me.
· I have a plethora of bad habits. Nail biting is the worst one. I bit my nails for ten or so years before I found I could stop, but I still bite them when I’m stressed. FYI, my nails are currently a raggedy mess. Candy eating is another terrible habit I picked up when I started college. It keeps me from biting my nails and helps me focus, but I’m afraid my teeth and my stomach might hate me for it. I think I might have an oral fixation.
· I’m a lazy, overachieving perfectionist. That might sounds odd, but I’m completely anal about minor details and I’m the kind of annoying person who stresses over my GPA and gets pissed when I get an A-. However, I like to devote as little time and energy as possible to achieving my goals. It works out for me most of the time. Thank god I was born with above average intelligence (See: stuck up bitch).
· I have various medical maladies and isssues. When I was in high school, I missed months of classes because I had some unidentifiable GI problem that kept me from keeping any food down. I’ve had surgery on my brain and my gall bladder is gone. The whole no gall bladder thing has caused various other problems like acid reflux and I have to be careful about what I eat (Well, I should be careful, but I’m definitely not). I also have pretty frequent migraines and I’m lactose intolerant. Jesus, it sounds awful when I write it all down. But really, I live a normal life. I’m not trapped inside and I don’t roll around in a bubble.
· Speaking of illnesses, I had a rare Asian baby heart disease called Kawasaki Disease when I was six. No idea how I got it.
· I’m pretty sure I have an addictive personality (but I’ve yet to become a drug addict or an alcoholic), and I tend to fixate on things. It could be a phone or gadget I want or a celebrity, but I just OBSESS over whatever or whoever it is. I don’t know why, but I’m trying to get better at it.
· I think my personality is hard to describe. I very much have a type A personality and I can be really intense and serious. My mom tells me I’m mean and that I could kill someone with a glare or an insult. I don’t think Im a mean person though. I’m a good friend, and daughter, and sister (most of the time), I just don’t put up with stupid shit from other people. But at same time, I’m really ridiculously silly. It seems really incongruous with other aspects of my personality, but you should hear some of the stuff that comes out of my mouth.
· I can only really cook tacos and this one pasta dish really well. And I can bake and make breakfast food. I just never really try to cook anything that I haven’t made before. I can’t be too hard to follow a recipe, I don’t think. But I don’t like knives or ovens so that keeps me out of the kitchen.
· I hate heights, but I love rollercoasters.
· It pisses me off when people don’t recycle, but I have thrown a can into the trash on occasion.
· I’m probably not going to be friends with you if you don’t believe in global warming or evolution.
· I have a weird color-coordinating thing that I’m pretty sure is my mom’s fault. I like to put things like Skittles or M&Ms or gummies in rainbow order before I eat them.
· I won’t iron anything unless if desperately needs it.
· I’ve had a different roommate every year of college because I get tired of people and their habits really quickly.
· I like to talk about things I don’t like.
· I’ve recently become a news junkie.
· It really bothers me when people don’t know what’s going on in the world. One of my friends asked me if Mitt Romney was a democrat or a republican the other day and what he was running for. The same friend once said he didn’t know what NPR was. Sigh.
· I’m super impatient and I don’t like waiting or doing things that take a long time.
Alright, I’ve grown weary of this list. That’s a lot of things you never wanted to know about me. I’ve got to go vacuum now because when I’m home for the summer my parents like to give me endless chores to do. I’m thinking my next post will be about the two hour Glee episode that’s coming on tomorrow night (yay!).
Let the summer begin…
It’s about 40 minutes until Mother’s Day begins and I’m thinking about myself. Isn’t that terribly selfish of me?
Let me explain. It’s currently 11:17 PM EST according to my old alarm clock that has a tendency get seven minutes off (why haven’t I unpacked my iHome yet?), and I’m sitting in my room worrying about finding a job this summer. This might seem like a silly worry to you. Surely a competent, attractive (at least I think so), intelligent, college educated (somewhat) 19 year old girl can find a job over the summer no problem, right?
Uhm, wrong. See, while do whole-heartedly believe that I am all of those things I’ve listed above, I have no job experience. Yes, yes, I’ve gone 19 years without ever working a day in my life. How very Ann Romney of me. Long story short, a bunch of medical issues and general apathy towards getting an job experience kept me from finding a year-round part time job while I was in high school. The summer after I graduated high school I didn’t put much effort into getting a job. Rinse and repeat for my first year of college, the summer after freshman year, and this school year.
But things are different this summer. I have all sorts of grand ideas for what I have decided to call “Caitlin’s Grand Tennessee Summer 2012”. I really need to get my drivers license after putting it off for four years and getting criticized by family and friends alike. I need to buy things for my first apartment next semester. I’m considering dyeing my hair and getting a tattoo. I should probably learn how to cook more than pasta and tacos. And I really, REALLY need a job. It’s not just that I can’t stand to be home all day doing housework and being lazy for yet another summer, though that is a huge contributing factor. And it’s not just that I need to make that money, though that would also be nice. I need job experience if I’m ever going to get a real job once I leave my tiny college bubble world and enter the real world (hopefully starting in New York City).
So, yeah. I have no work experience and I’m trying to look for a job in a tiny Tennessee town where everyone tries to snatch up the few summer jobs there are. No fun. I’ve violated my earlier snob rule that I would never work in the food service industry and gotten an application for a job at Mr. Gatti’s, but apparently my favorite pizza place is so prestigious that you need three references. I don’t even know anyone who can vouch for my work except professors, and I’m too awkward to ask them. My mom says that’s stupid, but there you go.
I’ll probably continue to be worried about these stupid references until I cave to my mom’s demand that I email a professor or someone I’m in an organization at school with and ask if I can list them as references. Then I’ll apply to a zillion more places in the hopes that I can make bank this summer. Hell, I will apply to places that won’t pay me. I just need somewhere to be all summer. Desperately. That’s why it’s my number one goal for the summer.
Do I have other girls you (probably wouldn’t) ask? Why yes I do. They are as follows:
2. Unpack my shit that I brought back from my dorm. It’s getting ridiculous.
3. Get that license!
4. Cure my Tumblr addiction (See: unlikely things to happen)
5. Stop reading so much damn fanfiction
6. Make an inspiration board (lame?)
7. Be nicer (See again: unlikely things to happen)
8. Learn to cook
And finally, write some more. That’s a big one that probably doesn’t belong at #9. I used to write. I used to right a lot. Granted, it was bad band fiction when I was thirteen, but whatever. I really used to enjoy it. I don’t know what happened. I think I just got lazy and lost the patience it takes to write something worthwhile. Last semester for an English class I actually wrote a short story about a gay kid in the sixties after the Stonewall Riots. It wasn’t bad. It was also a sneaky AU fanfiction about Blaine Anderson, but again, whatever.
The point is that I would really like to start writing again. If not legit fiction (or non-fiction if the mood ever struck me), then blogging, which is why I created this blog a couple of days ago. I’ve told myself a million times that I would actually take the time to have a blog about something, and I never stick with it for whatever excuse I give. I’ll admit, it’s mostly laziness, which is probably why I’m so addicted to Tumblr. It’s super easy to hit reblog and keyboard smash about Glee and Darren Criss. Writing down coherent thoughts? Not so easy, at least not for me. But I’m trying for now. Hopefully this has been coherent enough so far for whoever may be reading this to understand.
My hope for this blog is for it to be a place for me to get my thoughts down and just write. Hopefully, I might even better my written communications skills while I’m at it. I don’t want this to be a place where I post stiff, formal things about myself. I just want to be able to talk about my life and the things I think about and write them down in unedited form. Isn’t that when communication is best? I think so. I don’t even really care if anyone but me sees it (okay, maybe I want SOME PEOPLE to see it.
This blog may devolve into me ranting about the Tea Party and gay rights. I may also give up on it altogether, but for now I just want it to chronicle my “Grand Tennessee Summer”. What I’m thinking, what made me mad one day, how the job search is going, pictures, etc. If this survives past the summer, I’ll decide where to go from there. So stick around and check back if you feel like it. My next post, should I decide to make another one will be a bio type thing.
Now I’m off to Tumblr to drool over Darren Criss and Grant Gustin. Then I’ll probably read some fanfiction on my Kindle in the dark. I have a problem, I know.
Until the next time.
P.S. Did I mention that my parents will get my a car if I get a job? Yeah, no pressure there.
I’m about to migrate over a couple of posts from a blogger account I started a little while ago.
So please forgive the date discrepancies and such. I just decided that I should stick with what I know with Tumblr instead of trying to figure out another blogging platform.
